Post 211

Phew, that's a lot of posting.

I am good today. Had a super busy day and thought a lot about life and death. I suppose that is how I spend most of my days. Today, though, I had a rough patch in the morning that ended with me crying in the book shop while waiting for my acupuncture appointment. As always Nancy straightened me out, and I feel much better. We figured out it was two things, I have to tell an old friend that I have cancer and haven't really been in touch with him for a couple of years. I thought it would be hard, and it might be, but the story I was spinning about that conversation was weighing on me. Not the real conversation, not based on anything that I know, just some crap my chemo brain made up.

The second thing is I had to get my tooth fixed and over the weekend I thought of a joke for the dentist "just make it last a couple of years." Not so funny if you think about it over and over for a couple of days. Let's just say when I was in her chair today, I didn't make that joke. I told her she would be the first doctor I would come to when I was chemo free. She really wants to fix that tooth. Right now all she can do is use this tooth filler. I am sure one day this tooth is just going to be a filling surrounded by tooth spackle.

So back to my busy day, lots got done - picked up the tile for the new bathroom (purple and butter cream), did a little shopping, got my glasses fixed, acupuncture, dentist, bank, gas, you get it. All with my pump and red red cheeks from the steroids. I am pretty proud of myself. I also got to read Bennett books and play with her tonight and she was super giggly. That makes me happy. So I end this day on a good note. I return my pump tomorrow - my turn is almost over. Thank goodness.