Medium on the Hopometer

Feeling better, doing more. It's better. I actually did some good stuff today, which I will talk about later. I just feel the hard hard pull of chemo land. I don't want to go there, I want to be in this moment, with my people, in with the love.

I made some grapefruit jam today as you can see below.

It took three hours of mostly waiting around and stirring. Pat and I (really Pat) worked on Bennett's room some more. It looks great. We actually moved the bed into it, so it's really a room. There are still some details, but it's an exciting moment. She is so big- she asked me if when she is four does she get another bigger bed. A huge bed, she wants. All of her pants are starting to get too short and her vocabulary now includes things like "delicate." She is with her Aunties right now. I am sure getting into lots of good mischief.

So, I will soldier on and avoid chemo land. I will be in the moment and work hard to do things that I love, like make jam and a good cozy room for B. And do what I can for Pat who is the hardest worker I know. She is most the rock-solid person I know. She amazes me everyday, as does Bennett, and all of you. That will keep me out of chemo land.