Merry Christmas

And it was. We all woke up this morning and were having a good cuddle when Bennett realized it was actually Christmas morning. It took a full two seconds for her to run out of the bedroom and start at the presents. She was done pretty quickly and we had fun playing with her stuff all day. She cried really hard when her tribe of Aunties left. She loves her new scooter and rode it back and forth through the house all day. We also watched Willie Wonka and tried to get her to use the potty. It was a BIG day.

I am trying my absolute best to try to stay present and really be in this big day. Nancy, my acupuncturist, says that I cannot fully engage in my life if I am constantly steeling myself against my sadness and anxiety. So I remind myself that I am alive today, that I have to give the future (even the next minute) to God so I can be held through all of this.

We are getting a storm tomorrow. I just looked at weather.gov and it says 9-13 inches possible. Well, that makes up for the lack of snow so far. Snow Monday too. That makes me a little nervous for travelling to Worcester for the pre-op visit, but the MassPike should be okay. And here I am worrying about the future, when I said I was trying not to. Let it go, already, will you?